I love it

I love talking.  This may not be news to all of you but just to make sure you all know... I LOVE TALKING.  It is one of the things in my life that I feel like I will always be good at.  I love talking to strangers, to people I know, to crowds consisting of hundreds to thousands of people, I love pillow talk, scary talk, and crazy talk.  The point is that I have been having so much fun getting to know people this year at Utah State and it is just a testament to me that we are seriously all so different and I love it! I have never met someone at Utah State that has the same story about how they got here as someone else.  Differences are the most important thing in relationships between friends and within a community. 

I am such a blessed person.  I just wanted to say that.

Life is going well overall and I am happy.  There are obviously some circumstances that I wish were different and much of my feelings from previous posts remain, but, I know that the Lord LOVES ME!! I am happy, and I always will be. That's the Plan and im stickin to it.

College

So this year is shaping up to be pretty great and the summer was about as sucky as I thought that it would be.  I did although have high hopes going in to it but they were soon crushed by something that to be completely honest I never thought would be a problem.  As it turns out, all of those days in my life that I spent bettering myself and overall just becoming a well-rounded person, I was really just setting myself for complete failure in the relationship world.  See, girls don't want someone that is already functional, someone that makes them happy, or that will treat them with the love and respect they deserve.  No, girls want someone that will treat them differently every day and that is someone that they can "fix-up".  For the first time in my life being good enough was not good enough.  I lost because I was worth keeping.  In other words, Being worth Marrying was not enough to be worth dating.  Awesome.  Life has an awesome way of screwing you in the most awkward positions.  I feel like I took a drink from Life and that Life put GHB in it and I passed out, waking up in a room I didn't recognize, no amount of CAPSA counseling can heal these wounds.  And ya know what, I bet life isn't even going to call me after.  Life is not a B****, Life is a Date Rapist.  Life takes you out and shows you a nice time, but in the end leaves you naked curled up in a ball taking a cold shower wondering what you did deserve such a thing.  Yes.  This is the Life that I know. Life wears a backwards cap.  Life has a soul patch.  And yes.  Life even does the Wink and Shoot.  So please remember when life gives you lemons and you make lemonade, don't set your lemonade down anywhere.  Because Life will drug you.

Finals

This year I decided to do things a little differently before finals week.  Instead of studying and worrying about the ensuing week I decided to take it off...my clothes that is... joking.  So I headed to California wiht my sister and SPencer STeadman and it was the best time of my life.  I think I may have found a new tradition of escaping the week before finals to regroup.  I feel so refreshed now and ready to tackle anything.  Also, I think this summer I might have to start going on some dates.  It has been quite a long time but it should probably start happening soon.  Also list of things to do this summer:
Trips to Cali (4)
Trip to DC (1)
Pittsburg (1)
MT. Biking (daily)
Long boarding (DAILY!!!!)
Cliff Jumpin... no
Summer SALES??? HAHAHAHA No, (not that there is anything wrong with that)
LOTS OF FISHING
lots of Sand Volleyball

Mostly just lots of fun... so if you wanna be a part of my life lemme know suckas

New Post for a new coast?

I'm going to chalk this year up to done.  This has been one of the longest, best, worst, hardest, funnest, easiest, saddest, happiest, scariest, most emotional years of my life.  My life could have gone in a million different directions at a million different points.  Who I am is who I am supposed to be, probably.  I feel like I was able to accomplish a lot and yet I don't feel like I did anything, or enough for that matter.  This was a year of a lot of IFs and that's ok, i'm ok with where I am in life.  So I have decided that no matter what happens next year im going to be laying low, fading out into the background, maybe be some white noise for a while.  Hard to do on a campus such as this. So...

I recently started looking into other options for me for the next year.  I applied to a few internships and also to some other schools.  This was originally to get me doing things that would help me to maybe do some growing up and maybe a little of the growing apart.  I was accepted to UC Davis.  So lays an option:  California... Northern California... close to my family... where no one knows me... how tempting do you think that might be for me? 

I just love Logan and so I find myself pretty much focusing on the same questions every day all day.  Cost and benefits and all that kind of thing.  Anyways, that is where I am in life.  Closing a long, great chapter and possibly opening a new one in my life.

Becoming one of those and ADD

Well today I have started my new life as one of those people that writes about what he is thinking in a place other than a journal, facebook or twitter.  Actually, maybe I should get a twitter. I always thought that it was a lame idea but apparently some of my favorite people use twitter, which would be great because sometimes I really am wondering what exactly Justin Bieber is doing or where he is or what he is thinking.  In fact, maybe I will do that next.
Blogging is something i've wanted to do for a while, to just let people know what i'm thinking.  Maybe I should just mass text everyone in my phone every time I want them to know what i'm thinking.  That is kind of like twitter right?  Every twenty minutes my entire phone book will get a text along the lines of "man what a good day... and burger, nom nom." people would love that.
So blogging and twitter is basically what this has come down to.  Let's see how it works out for me